My most favorite place to be is home... this being wherever my family and friends reside! However, I am finding myself longing for a bit of distance and solace. I have always been a fan of traveling and yet I have always tied myself to things that demanded my attendance to the homestead. So, it is settled. The planning begins with the purpose of gaining perspective, discovering a new favorite dinner place, and meeting a new friend.
I will share the beauty of my happenings here.
I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel's sake. The great affair is to move. ~Robert Louis Stevenson
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Woke up with a head full of words...
It is difficult for me to be transparent. Down the roads of my own life, I picked up on the lie that it is better for everyone if you just keep certain things to yourself. Not many will truly care and some might even come to the conclusion that you are just in search of some side dishes of pity. However, as I begin to write down these words, I am coming to realize that the very reason my heart is heavy is because of silence. So, here it is.
I am 27 years old and I am completely devastated that my parents are separating. I am trying to fight my way out of the most unhealthy anger I have ever experienced towards my father and I long for the ability to be what I need to be for my mother. I am certain, because of these things, that I am completely in love with the both of them.
I am sad that my son has a temporarily broken mom and that my husband has a distracted wife. However, I am thankful for the both of them and I understand that I could not have asked for a better family to stand next to me.
I feel completely let down by those who could have helped and chose not to. I feel angry at those who have formed an opinion rather than a hurt. And then I begin to beat myself up for all of the times I have done the same. I think I am beginning to learn that love doesn't function the way I thought it did... thank God.
Whether right or wrong... this is where I am.
I am 27 years old and I am completely devastated that my parents are separating. I am trying to fight my way out of the most unhealthy anger I have ever experienced towards my father and I long for the ability to be what I need to be for my mother. I am certain, because of these things, that I am completely in love with the both of them.
I am sad that my son has a temporarily broken mom and that my husband has a distracted wife. However, I am thankful for the both of them and I understand that I could not have asked for a better family to stand next to me.
I feel completely let down by those who could have helped and chose not to. I feel angry at those who have formed an opinion rather than a hurt. And then I begin to beat myself up for all of the times I have done the same. I think I am beginning to learn that love doesn't function the way I thought it did... thank God.
Whether right or wrong... this is where I am.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Freedom to speak
So, here I am. Blogging. It isn't as if I woke up thinking "the world needs to hear what I have to say". I just want to speak. And perhaps, I just need to hear what I have to say. Bottom line, I am looking forward to this blank canvas made especially for my words. I will do my best to bare my soul all the while maintaining a positive outlook.
"Freedom is nothing but a chance to be better." -Albert Camus
"Freedom is nothing but a chance to be better." -Albert Camus
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